Baking away the blues?

I had a rather interesting day yesterday. I contemplated the ever ridiculously frustrating Greek relationships, family, and society wise, but, mostly family. I already know the formal sociological traits of collectivist vs. individualist cultures, so i am not going to educate now on that. I am for the most part a stickler for fairness too, and i don't like it if i feel my rights are being violated. The point is to be effective with my actions, not to simply react to situations.
I was also keenly aware of depression and an over stimulated life. Firstly, it started when i heard of a man killing himself at mid life, and i have seen this many times before, and it was depression. I also thought of an interview of Michael Stipe I had seen once, in which in my opinion he talked about depression or the void, or absence of stimulation.

Michael Stipe, was talking about being at a regular dinner party and feeling, shit this is so boring, i can't stand it it is so freaking well, lacking. He was used to being in front of arenas, and stadiums, adrenaline, pumping i don't know what other stimulants going through his veins, but, the sheer work up of natural endorphins, and adrenaline, would be enough, to keep you somewhat stimulated and in an altered state of mind, probably higher. Well, he said he caught himself, and said, no this is not boring this is real life, this is what it is, stop labeling it, stop stepping back from it and saying its boring.

But, i thought about this, take middle age, where allot of times people have given up their stimulants, their booze, women, narcotics of sorts, hell performing, and overall have settled down. Hello, surprise surprise, depression, unless, they find other stimulants, running, acting crazy with religions, (you know the ones that suddenly talk to God), sorry couldn't resist, pie baking, eating all the pies baked, sex, lack of sex, shopping, lack of shopping, fasting, over eating, ad nausea. It just doesn't end this hyper-stimulated existence!

I think we all have vices, addictive uses of substances to get that all right, or beyond depression feeling. How about if we stop! Can we stand ourselves, our depression, our boredom? As Michael Stipe noted, when he was at a mere dinner party! Well, talking about this depression of middle age and suicide, mostly it is males that I hear of at middle age. I wonder is it this boredom, can they not stand it?

Tough one, I like the Buddhist perception of life that heck deal with it because even if you decide to leave this place if you haven't dealt with it, you will be back till you do deal with it. In this case I like the fact that you can't get out of it, however, the question remains unanswered why can some people take it and others can't?

I guess, i need to study this more throughout life, and see what other concepts come up. Now, for my addiction release and feel goods, i baked tsourekia last night, i know it is a sweet bread with butter kind of like a brioche, with a spice called mahlepi, in it, which is kind of a sweet smelling spice, it has mastic in it which is raw gum which is ground, which really has a very wonderful aroma, i didn't have mastic, so i left it out, but, non the less, the trick to tsoureki (brioche really) is both mastic, and mahlepi spices, and if you can get it clarified, sheep's milk butter. Its, heavenly.

Today, some kind of pork dish, i don't know just pork cubes fried in water, yes water then doused with wine, or something similar, i don't know if i have any wine around, i am gonna go to my father in laws and take some of his if i don't. And simple add a chopped onion about ten minutes before taking off the heat, and lemon, salt pepper, and some herb, i have a sweet herb similar to oregano or use oregano.