I may be a Tad too serious Even For Me at Times

I was reading (studying) Stelios Ramfos, last night, his book is called, "The Jesus Secret", i am reading it in Greek to keep me open and teachable in Greek, which i refuse to adopt as a language(internally) for some reason. English language just seems a lot easier. The way I read books now is just kind of open to a place and jump in somewhere, i don't really read them cover to cover, and in fact I am not truly interested in books that are sequential and have events. I prefer vignettes and if i writer can't write also, in a very inclusive and jam packed way, i probably won't be interested in reading it. Never the less, I jumped into a passage where he was talking about Jesus, healing an epileptic, by taking a spirit out of him, what Ramfos talked about was the faith, of the father, of the boy. He asked that he be helped with his apistia, which means faithlessness, lack of faith, but, Ramfos said, it wasn't his faithlessness at the point of the healing, but, the maybe cumulative effect of being lacking in faith, before Christ, entered, and healed, by asking them if they had faith. I think well, i need to study this more, cause Ramfos is not easy reading, at all, but, it is much more interesting to me, cause he does my favorite thing as a write, Poly-references, up the wazoo. It's like getting a really dense creation of sorts, like in cooking a perfect cake with fudge in it and spices. I also, feel that faith, in miracles is not the problem. It is the cumulative, and kind of habitual many years, of non faith, that is the problem. I don't know if this is what he meant, i wish we had our old church back, but, everyone is all over Europe, and i won't get to see him to ask him. I do miss talking to thinking people, i really do.
On another note, cooking today, i don't feel like doing any, i will make some soup in the evening, some Youverlakia, which is a meatball, soup in rice with lemon, and egg, i usually, leave out the eggs, and just use lemon juice. Anastacia, likes it and she can take it to school in her thermos, for lunch tomorrow, i made a meat sauce yesterday, with tomato base a ragu. The secret is always, to put two bay leaves, and Mbahari spice, makes it quite eastern tasting to me, meaning the far east.
I found this book that an old friend of my hubbies wrote concerning Turkish recipes, and they are quite lovely, but, she is a terrible cookbook writer. She is also a bit of a gypsy, so i can't call her up and ask her. I have been wanting to make sui bureck, which is a pie with filo which is boiled and then, buttered and stacked, in the middle feta, and baked. Like a Turkish lasagna, i have had this in Ismir, and it was my favorite Turkish (delight), while i was there. It seems laborious, i don't know if the fillos will stick together, if they touch as they boil, cause they gotta be kind of big, unless i boil them in a big round (tapsi) pan that i have? I know i will make it one day, i do think it is a beautiful bureck(pie), also this was served simply with eggs, and tomatoes, omelet, maybe with a dash of spicy paprika, on the eggs, salt pepper.
O.K. it is sunny but kind of wet out, Sunday, i should go visit my God mother, i have been avoiding this, since my godfather died, last winter, at least i saw him before he died. It is a trek though to her house from mine, and i don't have the car today, but, i may go since time is on my side today.